Author Archives: annwae

Seven years on

Posted on September 20, 2018

I am both heartbroken and thankful when someone emails me about reading my blog. Thankful that they have found me. Heartbroken because they are on the same painful journey of learning to live again after the life shattering event of … Continue reading →

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Dear Toby

Posted on December 22, 2017

Dear Toby, It is your 30th birthday today, it is always a bit confusing on birthdays – should I celebrate or cry all day? I still think of you as my little boy, I lost you when you were 23, … Continue reading →

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That time of year again

Posted on December 19, 2017

Well it’s that time of year again and I usually just regurgitate my blog about how to survive Christmas after the loss of a loved one, but it doesn’t feel appropriate anymore. A better blog would be how to survive … Continue reading →

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A million questions why?

Posted on April 18, 2017

One of the first questions asked by survivors of bereavement by suicide is – why? We are born programmed with an inner sense of self-preservation; fight or flight. If faced with danger we can access huge surges of adrenaline that … Continue reading →

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On the subject of grandchildren

Posted on March 10, 2017

I’m 61 now and when mixing with people my own age there seems to be only one subject that comes up constantly and that is grandchildren. “Oh what a joy it is at our time of life spending time with … Continue reading →

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Just another day

Posted on December 24, 2016

I’m not really fussed about Christmas, to me it’s just another day. I have an older brother but since our teens we’ve never been close. No big drama, we just don’t have a sibling bond, I’m not sure why. I … Continue reading →

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Goodbye Kim Long

Posted on December 3, 2016

I just said goodbye to an amazing, spirited, talented young man. I didn’t really know him so how do I know he was amazing? Because I’ve just come back from attending his funeral. Kim John Sequoia Long was 18 years … Continue reading →

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