Tag Archives: Grief

What is grief?

Grief….I’ve read more about grief than I ever wanted to, and yet I still seen to be drawn towards it. I recently flicked through a supplement in The Times of the 50 best new books that you should read over … Continue reading

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Happy Birthday Toby

Dear Toby, It seems to have become an annual tradition now, writing you a letter on your birthday every year. This year you would be 27 in earth years. It is hard to believe that 27 years ago I was … Continue reading

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I hope you had the time of your life

I remember distinctly the first time I heard this song. I was watching a documentary on BBC2 about a family who had a son who was autistic. He got so distressed by eveyday life, they had moved to some remote … Continue reading

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Dear Toby,

Dear Toby, Today is your 25th birthday but you are not around for me to see how you have changed and grown up, you will be forever frozen at 23. I wonder if you would have changed much, but I … Continue reading

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I don’t want this to be the way my story ends….

Hundreds, maybe even thousands of times, since I lost Toby I have pondered my desire to carry on living. I still don’t know how I have carried on, because if you had asked me 2 years ago how I would … Continue reading

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How will I carry on?

I have written before about comparing intense grief to having a disability like losing a limb. Of course we would have rather we had lost a limb than our child, but the point I’m making is that we have to … Continue reading

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Guilt – part 2

Guilt is an emotion that comes up again and again from parents, and reading the comments in my support group prompted me to publish this excerpt from the book ‘A Handbook for Survivors of Suicide’ by Jeffrey Jacskon who lost his wife. … Continue reading

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Guilt

This is a tough one. I only have my own experience of grief and I know that everyone’s experience is not the same. But guilt is an evil friend that pops in to torment you every now and again. After … Continue reading

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Evolution

OK so this blog is evolving. Like everything, fog clears, pieces fall into place, what started as one journey ends up at a different destination. I have been reflecting, I do this constantly. I started off on a dream, then … Continue reading

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Facing Christmas without a loved one

It starts around the beginning of November, maybe earlier. It is the same each year and there is no escape. Christmas ads on the TV, decorations being put up in the shops and houses lit up like Blackpool illuminations. Everyone … Continue reading

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