Author Archives: annwae

Dear Toby,

Posted on December 22, 2012 by annwae

Dear Toby, Today is your 25th birthday but you are not around for me to see how you have changed and grown up, you will be forever frozen at 23. I wonder if you would have changed much, but I … Continue reading →

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I don’t want this to be the way my story ends….

Posted on November 24, 2012 by annwae

Hundreds, maybe even thousands of times, since I lost Toby I have pondered my desire to carry on living. I still don’t know how I have carried on, because if you had asked me 2 years ago how I would … Continue reading →

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How will I carry on?

Posted on November 4, 2012 by annwae

I have written before about comparing intense grief to having a disability like losing a limb. Of course we would have rather we had lost a limb than our child, but the point I’m making is that we have to … Continue reading →

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Reinforcement in the Aftermath of suicide

Posted on September 21, 2012 by annwae

Reinforcement in the Aftermath of Suicide LaRita Archibald RESPONSIBILITY:  Putting it into perspective. I have a responsibility TO those I love… to be loving, patient, considerate and kind, to be loyal, respectful and honest, to be appreciative, encouraging and comforting, … Continue reading →

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Can we take a vacation from grief?

Posted on August 12, 2012 by annwae

I have come to realise that a lot of people underestimate the physical toll that grief takes on the body. In the early days, and to some extent even now, I found even simple tasks seem to take up vast … Continue reading →

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Anniversaries – a time for reflection

Posted on July 17, 2012 by annwae

I was dreading the first anniversary of Toby’s passing. My mind told me it was just another day on this planet without my son, but I couldn’t prevent all the triggers flooding in, the British Grand Prix, memories of what … Continue reading →

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Guilt – part 2

Posted on June 28, 2012 by annwae

Guilt is an emotion that comes up again and again from parents, and reading the comments in my support group prompted me to publish this excerpt from the book ‘A Handbook for Survivors of Suicide’ by Jeffrey Jacskon who lost his wife. … Continue reading →

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How to build your support system

Posted on May 27, 2012 by annwae

Our support system is put to the ultimate test when someone close to us dies. Whether they are old or young, whether the loss is expected or sudden, through illness or accident, loss can leave us feeling isolated and alone. … Continue reading →

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Guilt

Posted on May 16, 2012 by annwae

This is a tough one. I only have my own experience of grief and I know that everyone’s experience is not the same. But guilt is an evil friend that pops in to torment you every now and again. After … Continue reading →

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Sundays

Posted on April 15, 2012 by annwae

Ok so last week I promised a warts and all journal of what it is like living with intense grief. Isn’t it strange that we encounter so many people every day but we have no idea what they have experienced … Continue reading →

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