Category Archives: parents

It is there

Warning – this post contains some content that may upset bereaved parents It is there. It is there when I wake up in the morning, it is there as I get ready for work, it is there as I drive … Continue reading

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Dear Toby,

Dear Toby, Today is your 25th birthday but you are not around for me to see how you have changed and grown up, you will be forever frozen at 23. I wonder if you would have changed much, but I … Continue reading

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I don’t want this to be the way my story ends….

Hundreds, maybe even thousands of times, since I lost Toby I have pondered my desire to carry on living. I still don’t know how I have carried on, because if you had asked me 2 years ago how I would … Continue reading

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How will I carry on?

I have written before about comparing intense grief to having a disability like losing a limb. Of course we would have rather we had lost a limb than our child, but the point I’m making is that we have to … Continue reading

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Anniversaries – a time for reflection

I was dreading the first anniversary of Toby’s passing. My mind told me it was just another day on this planet without my son, but I couldn’t prevent all the triggers flooding in, the British Grand Prix, memories of what … Continue reading

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Guilt – part 2

Guilt is an emotion that comes up again and again from parents, and reading the comments in my support group prompted me to publish this excerpt from the book ‘A Handbook for Survivors of Suicide’ by Jeffrey Jacskon who lost his wife. … Continue reading

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