Category Archives: Loss

Dear Toby,

Dear Toby, Today is your 25th birthday but you are not around for me to see how you have changed and grown up, you will be forever frozen at 23. I wonder if you would have changed much, but I … Continue reading

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I don’t want this to be the way my story ends….

Hundreds, maybe even thousands of times, since I lost Toby I have pondered my desire to carry on living. I still don’t know how I have carried on, because if you had asked me 2 years ago how I would … Continue reading

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How will I carry on?

I have written before about comparing intense grief to having a disability like losing a limb. Of course we would have rather we had lost a limb than our child, but the point I’m making is that we have to … Continue reading

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Reinforcement in the Aftermath of suicide

Reinforcement in the Aftermath of Suicide LaRita Archibald RESPONSIBILITY:  Putting it into perspective. I have a responsibility TO those I love… to be loving, patient, considerate and kind, to be loyal, respectful and honest, to be appreciative, encouraging and comforting, … Continue reading

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Can we take a vacation from grief?

I have come to realise that a lot of people underestimate the physical toll that grief takes on the body. In the early days, and to some extent even now, I found even simple tasks seem to take up vast … Continue reading

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Anniversaries – a time for reflection

I was dreading the first anniversary of Toby’s passing. My mind told me it was just another day on this planet without my son, but I couldn’t prevent all the triggers flooding in, the British Grand Prix, memories of what … Continue reading

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Guilt – part 2

Guilt is an emotion that comes up again and again from parents, and reading the comments in my support group prompted me to publish this excerpt from the book ‘A Handbook for Survivors of Suicide’ by Jeffrey Jacskon who lost his wife. … Continue reading

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Guilt

This is a tough one. I only have my own experience of grief and I know that everyone’s experience is not the same. But guilt is an evil friend that pops in to torment you every now and again. After … Continue reading

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Evolution

OK so this blog is evolving. Like everything, fog clears, pieces fall into place, what started as one journey ends up at a different destination. I have been reflecting, I do this constantly. I started off on a dream, then … Continue reading

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Are you waiting for your dream to come true?

Be careful about pinning all your hopes on a dream coming true. I started to think about this recently when I read about the 12 bus drivers who had all won millions of pounds on the lottery. It was in … Continue reading

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